# UPDATEZ #

[230506]The worst movie i've ever seen. Davinci Code
[23-270506]Malay intensive.Stress
[260506]Bought for safiah b'dae present.Anglia
[280506]Miss sulika,she's so pretty on her wedding day!!. Sweet
[290506]Malay 'O' level paper.Quite easy
[300506]NYP trip.Boring

--cAN'T remember when it is,His eyes almost tell me something

Lihatkan senyuman yang ku pamerkan
Bak penawar bila kau duka
Jalinlah ikatan kita.Aku hampir
rebah dalam dakapanmu
Mengintai di setiap sudut memori kita
Dia telah menhancurkan anganku
Bayanganmu tidak pernah luput dari ingatan
Aku menghitung hari hariku
Suasana yang hening dan hampar
Mengusik ketenteraman jiwa ini
Sayu memandang luar jendela
Hujan renyai -renyai jatuh ke bumi
Seakan akan mengerti dengan perasaan ini
Linangan air mata jatuh ke pipi
Aku mengesatnya.[tenang]
Hatiku ditusuk bagai sembilu bisa
Sakitnya menikam kalbu
Secebis rindu aku pendam untukmu

Lenyapkanlah kesepian
Dia yang menawan hati
Sejak pertama kali bertemu
Kenyataan ini amat pahit
Namun,aku redha menerima
Ombak yang menghempas pantai
Bagai menghanyutkan diri ini dalam tangisan
Bila mana kasih tak fahami
Ia takkan mengerti
Bila mana kasih menjauhi
Ia takkan peduli
Bila mana kasih tak sudi
Ia takkan kembali
Tiada guna memendam perasaan
Dia telah meninggalkan ku
Buat selamanya.

ps:nothing to do with me...i just lurve
to write poem!.sad isn't it?

# SAD #

I'm all alone in the dark.i'm not sure whether ________its going to be very serious.I'm afraid to face the reality.I hope "this" is not happening,I wouldn't know i could handle it or ......not.

# WHAT SHALL I BUY FOR HER? #

Ouuhh i'm so happy for miss sulika.She's getting married end of this month.I thought of buying her a bedclothes.think its ok?dunnoe leh..i message fana..but she haven't reply..tiz gerl ar alwz off her phone.k tat'z...wanna sleep..i'm sick...

-miss him

# FEELING MISERABLE #

Since when did i become i role model?.nisa?.haiz...i dunnoe why at times i just look down on myself.Geography & S.S paper was disastrous.I didn't attach section A qns paper,i didn't remember how to ans SBQ qns[L1,L2,L3,L4,L5]The type of qns like reliability,usefullness.I didn't expect british state welfare to appear in SBQ&i was really weak in that chap.tanks wani for her attention.She knows how i feel & e most sweet thing bout her is that she actually message me yesterday night and ask me not to be so upset,she was worried seeing me after e test paper.Anyway,i feel a lot better.I knew what is my result goin to be like.tat'z..tiz afternoon meetin my cuzin!!ayu, mas,huda& iman!!!muackx

# HUMANz TMR #

I have no idea what i'm doing right now.I'm supposed to study u see...but then i'm just too tired.[i'm goin to do badly for mid-year]
[what happen just now]itz very irritating when someone called you&you didn't even know the person.IRRITATING.I miss having caller ID.haiz..if anyone dial my no.i can track them!

The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done.

--Francis Bourdillion--

# LAST REMINDER #

A gentle reminder to myself[IQA!!!!u have to see Mr Soong this friday]

# UPDATES #

[290406]
This term ,I'm all screwed up in preparation for my mid-year
exams--And there's lots of schoolwork,chapters to catch up with .
You think its easy for me?Particularly ,I'm upset with myself.
I ought not to care about anyone.I mean ...like ila,she's totally
giving up on her studies and i was like ...ouuhh ila please don't
you ever give up on yourself.--But now,NO...i didn't encourage
her,i didn't support her,i didn't motivate her.I simply let her be by herself,struggling with her studies. I'm nuts!.How dare could i
done that to her--she's been with me for 7 years.The fact ,she'd
never appreaciate what i'd done to her. So ,why shud i waste
my energy on her?why?why?.I'm not like an "Old"iqa.But why?.
Iqa used to be caring and alwz motivate her friends.But now?. Argh.What happened to me?.Perhaps, i'm stress..
i cannot cope with my studies--but though deep inside
my heart i still care for them. I'm confused,i'm disappointed with myself=(

In few months time,bro is going to continue his 3rd &4th year in ite.2nd bro ,will stop working and continue his private studies in BMC.{concentrate}.

Soon,i'll be sitting for my prelims,then o..Everything is going to be very drastic.Then coreen or uncle might call me & ask me to work again in BATA,coz i've promised them i would.But no..Maybe i'll find another job,like being a promoter, librian or part time tuition teacher.I think to far..hey iqa, u can't predict the future.


[300406]
Grandparents came.Lil ayu wanna go study at civic library on mondae..[what a coincidence) but she almost forgotten itz labour dae..& library will be closed.

[010506]
Mum's cousin from pakistan came by surprise.HuH.I dun understand thier language.Last few weeks was a visit from grandfathers cuzin,he live in australia.I dunnoe that dad have relatives there.ummph,wateva.