# LOVE YOU!!! #

**EMM....**dian kak fida,ani,rafiz,jeremy,uncle,coreen,ah kae,love you all muah muah muah:)without all of you i feel like quitting this job,emm..too bad ari raya oso still have to work,the first dae.....!!!want to cry leh....but nevermind....at least can come in the morning,but guess i will be back around 12:30,so sad....cry cry cry....

second part of my life...i'm not sure where he is...so long never heard bout him...i break my promise,and everything...wish that i could see him...no matter where he is...he'll alwz be in my heart....i'm not sure whether itz right or wrong.....but i tink in this case....no... we are totally different person....i wish he become a better person....whoever he is....

# MISS THEM LOTZ!! #

**EMM..**when farah told us tat she's not teaching us next year...i feel like crying.....and i did after she realease the class.....missing all my mates ....i'm afraid tat i would not see them again....waiting for the results on 19 dec....i'm not sure how'z it like...stop talking bout it....makes me more sad...
yesterdae went back at 12:15am...many customer ...and i manage to sell bout $950..not bad lar...todae must be more than weekdaes...very nervous.....if only dian work 2dae..i can depend on her..dian!!!..nvermind ,i understand that she's sitting for her o level...kzz......till here ..have to prepare my stufzz for work at 2..

# LAST DAY OF SCHOOL #

*EMM...** tmr is the last day of school,i decide to come...i 'm sure, i'm going to miss them so much....really....it have been 1 week that i never turn up for school....lately busy with my work schedule...i made a lot of friends and meet many different kind sof customers...sometimes i juz can't tolerate them....huh..its my job..anyway and i want to give my best..no matter how tiring it is...still have to bare with it...hoping that in the realease of n level result i will see many happy faces ..i want all of them to promote to sec 5....hopefully...too bad if some of them can't make it...i'm juz hoping that they will never give up and noe better for their future ..its sad u noe..when all of a sudden in a new year..u have a different environment whereby some of ur classmate r no longer with you....i juz can't take it..i tink it will take longer time to adapt to it...

second part of my life....i went to my work place juz now...i did the same thing like i did for my studies...there must be hard work then you can succed in wat u r doing in ur life..i noe shiqin must have a bad day for her first and second dae especially..coz evrything r alien to u..i'm not sure whether she can make it tmr..itz from 12-11pm....i'm coming at 2...at least i can help her...aniwae so happy that in e end my manager offered her the job!!!so will be seeing her most of the time...coz both of us will be working long hours...kzz....and one more thing...emm............................guess i should not talk bout it.......i'm really really sad....and confused..if only the person noe wat condition i'm in.....:(

# MY LIFE #

**emm**it was on sat when i went out with qin to find a job...actually i did it for fun....i guess its very boring u noe..for d next 2 months..so why not...rather than staying at hope,hanging out with my frenz &all d stuffz tat teenage do...we go ask every shop ,finnally i get it,emm...they need one person....so i accecpt it...very nervous ...coz its my first time working ..u noe..i'm working juz to challenge myself...i want experience and relate with more people out there..c how though life is..u won't get to learn anything if u stick at home......d first dae ..makes me feel like crying..i'm working from 2-10.30pm very tiring ,d manager give u d face when u did it wrong...juz have to bare it..itz common....but at least kak dian and fida help me....i noe they will be irritate if i kept askin them....keep it to myself anyway.dun mind if i get a scoliding..so far ok...i'm getting better for d second dae..many customers.....i'll do wateva i could....9 hours of standing..huh..cannot tahan.....this is life....we have to adapt to it...i'm sure what i'm suffering now is for my own good....coz in d future i will noe howz itz like...after this 2 moths i will neva eva gonna work that kind of job..never....its much more worst than working in fast food restaurant....i tink they get more beta pay...dun mind aniwae...its d fact that i want to learn sometin

second part of my life.....i dunnoe watz wrong with me lately..i have d feeling tat i miss someone..but i dunnoe who it is..i wish tat someday god will show me the way of my life...i dunnoe why sometimes i love others more than myself...i'm born to love and care for others..i tink tatz it....sadz....