# HAIZ...#

should i avoid everyone...?i'm so stress.....my friend problems....my personal....problems....stress ...very stress...ila called me juz now..we had a long conversation...all her burden...she only rely on me...how can i cope with that??my cca...my religious class...haiz...argghh...i need to be alone!!!plz dun bother...still deciding want to work or not...coreen still wants me back..there's so many of them quiting......i cannot decide...arghh...my studies...i'm slacking...why can't someone encourage me ...the problem is all of them...is in my situation ...but not bad as i am right now...mostly bout studies....haiz...aite...tatz for now...haiz...

# ARGHH.. #

i'm finding for my math worksheet!!!!tat "particular" one!among those 4!!! wks that mr soong gave us.......arghh.....
loads of homework.Lotz of story bout me.....bout me...bout me for the last two days...lazy to write.....aite till here.......
where's my worksheet!!!my worksheet!!!!i want to do tat one!!!
still finding my worksheet........huh....left it in class???arghh......S.T.R.E.S.S

# POETIC GIRL#

Kasih,
bebaskanlah kebuntuan
aku tidak sanggup menahan
menanggung perasaan
menerima kekecewaan
sekiranya kau berjauhan
menghiraukan penderitaan
tidak dapat ku bendung perasaan
yang selama ini tersimpan
di lubuk hati kewanitaan

Kasih,
angin bayu kurasakan
seolah-olah hadir seorang insan
aku hauskan belaian
belaian"insan"
kenang-kenang tapi berjauhan

Kasih,
hanya secebis rindu
yang ku pendam untukmu
aku menyangimu
aku merinduimu
setiap detik hari-hariku
aku memikirkanmu
mendambakan kasihmu


Kasih,
semanis katamu itu
membuatku terharu
katakanlah padaku
lafazkanlah padaku
jika benar kau mencintaiku
aku menatap sayu
mengenangmu
hadirlah,hadirlah kamu
dalam hidupku

Kasih,
apakah cinta,cinta??
dengar bait-bait kata
aku seperti tidak percaya
cinat,cinta,cinta
andainya nyata
pasti ada bicara

jiwaku meronta
hatiku derita
perasaanku sengsara
adakah kau melihatnya?
adakah kau melaluinya juga?

Kasih,
seindahnya kata-kata
tapi kabur pandangan mata
jika diam seribu bahasa...bicara
tidak terjawap apa-apa
hanya duka
hanya hampa
hanya kecewa
hanya derita
ku rasa,
aku ada bicara
kaulah permata
buat selama-lamanya

Cinta,cinta, cinta
benarkah semuanya?
biarlah masa
menentukan segala
aku pasrah
aku berserah
kepadanya[Tuhan]

Kasih,
malam sepi berlalu pergi
kerdipan bintang menyinari
air mata belinangan di pipi
adakah aku bermimpi?
kau bermimpi?
kita bersatu hati
tetapi itu hanya ilusi
sesungguhnya kau yang memberi
cinta yang suci murni
datang dari keikhlasan hati
terpendam lama di sisi
berpaut pada keyakinan diri
kau mencintai,mencintai
diri ini
yang tidak pernah kau temui
luhurnya budi
sematkan lah di hati


andainya aku pergi
terimahlah kenyataan ini
sentiasa menanti...

merinduimu kasih



---IQA

# POETIC GIRL #

"Special is a word
that is used to describe
something one-of-a-kind
like a hug
or a sunset
or a person who spread love
with a smile or kind of gesture.
"Special"describes people
who act from the heart
and keep in mind the hearts of others.
"Special" applies to something
that is admired and precious
and which can never be replaced.
"Special"is the word that best
describes you.

--Teri Fernandez

# POETIC GIRL #

A friend combines three wonderful things;
love,sympathy and help.
A friend is one who considers a need
before one's deserving.
A friend is so many things.....
the jewel that shines brightest in the darkness,
an encourager of the nobler side of nature,
a star of hopes in the clouds of adversity,
a diamond in the ring of acquaintance,
a volume of sympathy bound in love,
one truer to me than i am to myself,
one who understands a silence ,
a link gold in the chain of life,
the essence of pure devotion,
the warmth of sunshine,
a friend......like YOU.

--T.london

# POETIC GIRL #

You're becoming very special to me.

It all happened so gradually,too.
I couldn't tell you when we crossed
over the line from being friends
to being special friends.
But i'm glad we did.

I like being around you.
I like myself when i am with you.
Our relationship is based on mutual interest,
respect and shared support.
I can always count on you
to let me know that i'm
doing a good job of being
the type of person i want to be
And i think i give you
a boost every now and then,too.

I feel very compliment that someone as great as you
thinks i'm pretty special.
[I'm glad you're my friend]

--Maureen dixon

# ALL BOUT ME #

25Jan06.right after school i went for detention...my english class was hold back as we had not finished up our class work.mR Mohammad bang at my table because i slept....& everyone was looking at me....tat idiot bing ling laugh at me...haha....very irritating....anyway...who cares....an extended of 15 minutes.rasyid thought that i bring my hanphone to school..he message me,saying that i want to sabo them....haiz....he's alwz been very impatient....i know my responsibility....how could i just get off from bahas??in the first place i thought it was moon coz he was using moon hp.Rasyid......remember what mr bruce says...each of us have to be an angle to everyone in our class....someday i'll be angle to you&u will be angle to me.

Unexpectedly we win for this round "percintaan remaja membawa banyak keburukkan daripada kebaikan",pihak"pembankang"actually
i agree to this phrase....love brings problems to us....why must we fall in love......haiz......I Rmbr my first love ...so called, but its childish...we were in primary six.....he admire me when i gave him a present as i sign of our friendship and u noe wat.......he thinks the other way....he gave a pink bracelet in return...so sweet....wateva feelings.....i'm not into it at that moment...until now we still contact with each other.....haven't give him his birthday present last year....i still kept it.the only conflict is we were in differnt races...i'm not comfortable with it....u noe how it feels....no matter wat i still regard him as friends....the daes we spent together... r juz memories....so sorry for not appreciating his kindness and true heart

HER LIFE -ila she was so stress...she wrote a letter to me,she cannot cope wtih her studies,add on to her relationship with affa...impi...&guyz...ii'm not sure wat'z happening to them...Even though she's not close to me now....i still regard her as bestfriends....since primary 5 we had been in the same class till now....can't believe it...but it only last for 3 years....I was shocked when she told everything....its like as if i can solve all her problems......emm.....why must be me.....i'll try to help...but its difficult...coz we didn't get along quite well this few days...in terms of studies....should be.i don't want to get involve in ??? conflict.wat'z the problem???haiz....people....we're in the same class....why can't u all be forgiving...don't let matter turns worst...we meant to care for each other Ryte?....THINK ABOUT IT....

22JAN06-24JAN06.
1)i called the northpoint outlet to check an article....but this manager...he's a man ...quite old....try to flirt with me....huh.......so frustrated...as if i noe him!!!!!sometimes we cannot be so nice to guys....very irritating...better talk to them harshly...who do they tink they are?!arghh....
2)last day of work this saturday...i'm goin to return my uniform...end of my storey....life of being a salesgirl...herad that fida,limah and ani also wanna quit...not sure bout rafiz and dian...haiz....miss them lotz....have to concentrate on my studies....anway i don't really need money...focus iqa...
3)library fines....huh....still haven't pay since last year....when will i get the time to go library????so busy....tink bout it....
4)a certificate will be given ...when we had done our job as leaders....end of this year...& it will be published in our school magazine...........ahh........embarrased leh .....haiz....goodness not only me...but the other 17 student...
5)bro started working last weeks...he get better pay then me...$50-$70 a day...for this two mnths.....after taking his o result...he'll quit...
aite till here...tmr got ss,chem,eng test.STRESS

# LOADS OF WORK TO BE DONE #

Thinking about what i'm supposed to write for malay debate.PERCINTAAN REMAJA MEMBAWA LEBIH KEBURUKAN DARIPADA KEBAIKAN".This person,R.A.S.Y.I.D[O]he listed down my name even though he knew that i'm not good in debating.The fact only that i'm good in malay&he'd been reminding us to discuss about the topic between me & abdul rasyid.How can i get or set the time? when i'm busy on saturday sunday.note this also."WEEKDAYS".i'm in a confusion state.Very stressful at this moment.there's a lot of homework to do but still i'm sitting here writing a post.i didn't seems to care bout eveything.chemistry-struggling to understand what is mole+all the formula to calculate volume....++,A math-for the previous chapter which is permutations and combinations,u need to be good in ur english or else you can't do the qns.that's me.Now moving on to binomial theorem...worst....i need someone to guide me.

Asking myself.what happen to me???.This few days i've been slacking.todae[saturday]&sunday&again saturday nextweek!!!!!!my last day of working as a salesperson.IT may be the reason.i can't wait to quit.huh.add on to my CCA.miss grace told us,there will be many performances.One of which would be during assembly singing 6 songs.being the sectional leader.she keeps on emphasising to be independent,responsible,mature,mindset,heart to sing.noted.have to bare with it.My religious class....this sunday going to be 17 hours ...i'm not sure whether i can handle it or maybe i fainted??in the morning wake up at 6am...after religious than straight to work....most probably back at 11:30.monday-come early to inform yi xin tat i'm going for d concert in esplanade,16 feb.tuesday-peer tutoring training for leaders at AVA room with vice-principle guiding us including sec4 express.wednesday-debate+math remedial+choir practice.how u think that would be?thursday-chemistry remedial,friday-choir practice from 1:30 to 6:00.saturday-working,sunday-religious&working tat was "17" hours.NO longer by next month.

actually i'm force to go for choir...same to lydia.we come for the sake of having 75% attendance to get our CCA points.but not reallie ar....yesterday were very fun...naturally it opens my heart to sing sincerely.miss grace scolded us when we didn't give our best.haiz.....remember last year when the room were very tense as we were preparing for SYF.i cried when miss grace stepped out of the music room because she can't tolerate our attitude....[not cooperating &sing perfectly]The competition were drawing near....she made the decision that we will not be in for the competition......u noe how sad and miserable it feels.........Though we make it and acheive silver.its an excitment for all of us becoz...from COP we get silver.The training were tough....can't forget what i went through.emm.......too much of this storey.

I can't wait to start revising in the library!!!!!after i quit my job...realease all burden......guess it would ne next month.JURONG LIBRARY MY FAVOURITE!!!!!!have to borrow more english than malay books.aite till here...=)

# remember this #

one storybook i lend from wani....i can't understand..the thing is i dun like reading english storybook.ouhk wani tanks alot...emm....i lurve this storyline.book title.ria qistina.its about tiz girl name ria.got this one guy who send a message wrongly to her.she had no idea who is it.then tiz guy keeps on bothring her....she was so irritate....guyz r alwz crazy...anyway....so touching....many climax...most of all itz so interesting!!& ofcourse happy ending .impi!!!!i want to lend tat book again

i have 3 wishes...one wish for this year .......i'll be happy all my life!!!!no one its going to believe.....better not to mention.emm...the 4th one which is not very personal....perhaps top for o level this year.i do what i want.no matter wat........iqa.& i do wat i say.but all lies in god hands.=)

# ------------- #

Two of us,me and lydia.we're the only sec 5 in choir.very boring.emm....itz fine with me coz i lurve to sing.but then the breathing techniques,body posture,expression,& wat so ever....haiz...takes a lot of time.can't we sing without all this??

Heard for shafad.now she's in nursing,even though she's scared of blood!....very hard to advice her.itz too late...to say.she's into it.amir in clementi.tat dae meet him at interchange...so relief....ahaha...hope u r in the right path.

i'm slacking in A math.permutations and combinations.hate tat chapter.long english sentences.it seems difficult.but actually its easy!!!.dun tink too much.i'm so weak in english because of my grammer.how am i goin to sit for my o.rasyid i need u.........we're alwz so busy with our personal life....one dae i'll get to him.or miss wong.my "wonderfull"teacher.as if????i dun like her actually.she's a nuisance.hehe.

yesterdae stayback with fana & safiah in the school libary.its like we are the only group tat study....it was so quite....emm.....those people haven't started their engine.....haha...."mr bruce" mention tat.ouhk ....i'm happy coz now i learn how to run.....sounds funny isn't it.watever it is.aite till here.

# STRESS #

DJ??emm...wat course would tat be??interested in taking boimedical science.....haiz...target setting need to be completed by next mondae.fridae morning,we were shocked by the principle...again lecture..she's emphasising us......please......make up ur mind.u "MUST"go to poly or jc.happen to be some of my classmates sleeping in class during lesson .....i knew tat mr YAP is the one who make a complain to miss cheah.he's such a caring teacher.among all other sub teacher.he's the only one tat i admired so much!!!!.luv YA.=)

rYte know waiting for farhana.she's ask me to online ...aiya....fana fana...tmr goin for jogging....at 7+then right after that off to work at 11am.stress ......huh....still gort religious class then.....work again.i'm goin to quit by next month.want to concentrate on my studies.long time never go library doing self studies...miss d enviroment.being peer tutoring&teaching people.so much thingz......haiz...missing all of you lotz...aite till here.gtg.loads of homework got to be done.! ok fana &safiah,have a good conversation.out of here.c ya TMR ;)

# HARI RAYA HAJI #

yeah.....juz now meet my cuzin at granma house....then go lot 1 ...only take neo print...for some reason why i didn't link u gurls....so sorry..but i alwz log in when i'm free..itz so hard to tag!!!!u noe.....k nvm.because of ayu&mas!!!!!u gurlz ha....i have to go to compass point,maybe this thursdae,by myself???emm....hope wani can accompany me....or shiqin=).to buy"ONE"thing..i'm crazy for it...it so nice, brown colour...k enough iqa..

i dun understand myself,i'm not sure why must i delete him,i'm trying to avoid him,i dun want him,he make my life uneasy,i kept thinking bout him,why should i think bout him anyway???i never felt like this before...can't figure it out...huh.....watever...dun bother.juz dun bother okokokokok...make it clear to myself.iqa!!!!!!

# TWO NEW SUITS #

Mum,sis,and i went to geylang early in the morning coz we don't want dad to find out,he's goin to be mad!!!not really in that condition.mum bought me two suits.its so sweet.the cost was quite expensive.very hard decision.but finally mum comes to the conclusion....ok...mum alwz goes for d quality...so happy....

another visit to specialist centre on mondae,i'm not coming.tmr goin out with fana .go jogging.at admirtly park.at 5pm.can't go in d morning coz i have religious class.haiz.....maybe it will turn out we're running along the streets...all the way to sembawang.isn't tat cool!!!!tatz was shqin idea.not sure whether she'll coming.i'll contact her tmr.i'm running 2.4!!!hehehe...yes i state this previously in my blog post.mondae got PE.tuesdae holidae.hari raya haji.can meet my cuz.......miss them.....aaaaaaaaa......mum will be cooking delicious meal....huh..i'm gaining weight....why i never increase....get fatter i mean.u think 49kg is ok???my friends say tat iqa ur slim.ok fine.....i noe for all my life i'm not gaining anything....coz my weight never change since sec 3.but aniwae i like for who am i.people out there who is trying to loose their weight.....but tiz fellow like me,i'm not sure watz in tiz mind.......haiz....

i'm chemistry rap.....everyone have responsibility ....good tat i never be the chairperson...hehehe...i can't handle it,itz a tough job....i'll be shouting each dae.......chem teacher "MRS WHELEN".ouuhhhhhh..she's the top amongst other chem teacher....=)

i'm in band 2 for english,guess i'll be doing more revision in grammer.doing primary school english revision exercise.....its true ok......!!!!!huh.....weak in english..very badly..ur not going anywhere if u get 5 for english even though all the other subjects u get one..iqa!!!!

# $200 IN ONE DAE? #

when i'm back from school,mum told me tat she went to specialist near orchard to treat her eye....ouh my gosh..i can't believe tat one treatment in "ONE"dae cost u $200,!!!u won't believe tat it works...good,after all other medical attempt from many other places..she went ..which nearly cost $1000.huh.....three daes in school,full of lecture..the teachers keeps on stressing tat between N & O level its a big,huge,major......&bla bla bla....haiz....enough lar...we r damn bored to death...u noe....

gud tat the teacher never say anything....very embarrased leh...i mean top student dosen't mean to be so hardworking...yesterdae i never do my homework u noe....and fana,nisa were like ha??iqa.......u???one fact i'm lazy....get it right!!!!one way for success..is to fight urself....ur enemy is you...yar..mdm timah juz told us during d one hour "LECTURE" bored...........

gave mum alomost all of it..bout 1000+...one reason is becoz i want to stop myself from spending all of it...juz now i bought long pants which cost $69,but it was on offer aniwae....41 instead.seriously if i hold tat amount of money..i'm gonna used all of it.....huh..but i told mum to keep for me..¬ to used it!!!!!i'll ask for it when i need.save it in the bank....nope.....hehehehe......

mum goin to scream at me if i bought one more pair of shoe....emm...i could not stop it.....tmr goin out with qin and ezah......i wrote it in my previous post,mum goin for another treatment tmr.aite till here...finished my homework...i muz get tiz brain cells working...or else..i slacked...

# I'M BACK!!! #

back from school.for previous week never online.buzie with work.still continue my religious class....haiz...so much to sae...many things happening to me...it affect my life..ofcourse..tiz year...i'm gonna feel very bored.....bored bored....not seeing my express friends...emm...haven't bought my school books.going town with ezah and qin.go shopping.buying all my stufzz.treat them.2m2m.tiz life is very complicated.time r running fast.i juz dun believe itz 2006!!!.my new resolution.beta not to tell.secrect.

total...10 pairs!!!huh......for last month i blanja $150 for my shoe....if there is no sale it would cost $224.....i'm not sure how i can buy 10 pairs!!!i'm crazy???aiya.....wateva lar......one fact......i'm not the kind of person who like to collect shoes.......is not my hobby.....k.....but how it goes.....????huh...i'm goin to stop....not till end of tiz december....tatz too much!!aite till here.....