# START FAIR #

haven't bought any skool stufzz....haiz...when skool reopen...yar....muz force shiqin to follow me....hehe...how tiz spread so fast...i mean...bout ????.....so embarrased leh.....niwae itz gud thing bout me dun bother lar......kzzz tatz ....

# THE FAIR IS TIZ 27 #

last two daes imah start working...whole staff grumbling for her attitude....i didn't reallie notice bout it....coz i'm ignorant....not ignorant....emm.....dosen't care...letz put it tiz way....happen tat she steals people customer....last time she work at choa chu kang..i confess to her last night....asking .......how 'z ur serving on ur previous place...she say...ouh....its different.....fine with me....cannot blame her actually...coz she's alien here...need to explain to her how it goes....

frankly speaking....i do "dislike" some people....but not "hate" people...tat'z to evil don't u think?offcourse right???wondering......why people hatez...............so much.....keeps on pulling their faces.....i dun live for enemies.....why enemies???u get noting out of it.....one thing i notice is tat..."WE" hate people because [mostly] of their attitude.....& tatz includes me =) hehe....nope...i juz dislike...but still...i'm friend with them....confused myself...i'm even close with them....emm.....life...."YOU"...all of you.....muz have [[heart]]!!!!no matter how much u hate people.....one dae...u'll regret...coz "YOU"won't benefit anything....kzz....tats for 2dae...tmr start fair!!!

# FINALLY WE CUZ GO TOWN!! #

finally.....we go town.....actually...d ixora,fana&safiah plan tat the six of us go to esplanade.....haiz....very lazy .....but then i &cuz plan to go out.......so in d end we go out together.....very tiring ....went back at 7+..okie..tatz for 2dae.....not much to sae

# IS IT TRUE? #

muz be the reason why i'm late to skool last two daes....huh...cannot believe it..wasn't my dream after all....how surprised,shocked &sad i am....haiz.....still could not believe it!!!!!!!tanks to all of you ......congratz too all my fellow classmates...&friends who can make it to sec 5....huh..hard to sae..tiz....amir,whom i'm close with....he didn't make it.....noe the route he take will lead to more brighter future..miss u lotz,...man.......huh.....same for him....all his laughter&nuisance...no matter where he is....our friendship...will never end.....i'll alwz kept him in mind.....

hardly believe tat i've been very very ....close to many of my friends....but now i stick to one...i knew many of thier secrect life....i'm not sure how it goes for last few years.......they share thier life with me.....very sad....for fad....wani....i won't tell anione....i promise...lot to mention....tanks for being such wonderful friend....for ever for ever for ever........i will not forget all of you...till hell freezes over.....

# SADZ #

wat happen to me.....haiz.....terrible,horrible,lately..feeling low....probably i'm stress......coz of work....unexpected things happen to me....i've started to given up in my job..shiqin didn't even tell me tat she had stopped working...how could she??juz 4 a month?actually i noe watz happening..coz rite now.........specifically......which is yesterdae...yar.....better not to sae..not saying bout otherz.....let me phrase it short....[very competitive]dian told me once......huh...she's rite...particularly....it involves her most...,i can no longer be patient...they're too much....too much....how could "they"??i mean..."she",not enough with one?bored saying bout work stuff...i'm sick & tired........zzzzzzz.......2m2m....almost cried....i'm hiding tiz....not telling anione....watz reallie goin on...k...goin to take result 2dae...maybe with fana .......or alone....better rite???didn't feel any excitement....even if i get 3!!!!!it won't change my colours....i'm not happy not happy not happy.....!!!!!coz there's still one more ??????? tat i hope could change=(

deleting most of my contacts......this people so long never exist...even worst.....they torcher my life....can u understand.....wat i'm trying to sae?....i've been talking to myself......!!!!someone plz hear me...

# I'M TOUCH #

tiz wat happen to me yesterdae...emm..."HE"sae how'z ur working...u get commision or wat?so i tell tiz customer..yar.....so how ??he asked...u serve me first & why u ask ur fren to serve...some sort like tat lar...actually he's wife and children been serve by rafiz....he say....u dun have any hard feelings....or something.....when ur customer is serve by others.....k....i'm touch by it....very kind of him to ask me tat.....huh....i'm touch tat they customer do care......i dun mind....sometimes we have to give chance to others.....to gain more than we do....i wonder ..why should i be kind anyway.....haiz........life life life.....why i'm tat kinda person.....huh.....should i be cruel or something???

started to fall in love with "MAN"who is far older than me....they're so kind,gentleman,caring.......ahaha.....hope i'm not into it .....ahaha....tatz totally carzy......no.......

tiz subject.......hard to sae.....erm.....muz be someone who didn't key in my name....huh......dun care!!!i'm juz so frustrated.......why muz they lie....i hate liars ......plz people......can i ask tiz qns??????why u people like to lie so much??

tiz mondae taking n result.....can't wait.....no off...huh..coreen.........she sae more stock will be coming in....overtime again.....haiz....

# 300 CARTONS! #

hard to believe in the first place tat 300 carton r goin to be coming yesterdae....i'm workin...tiring....went back at 1:15am....board a cab with qin,dian&ani....uncle send fidah &rafiz...coz they didn't stay around woodlands...uncle treat us pitza...he want us to be like every "second"serving customer....while they buzie packing stock....huh..terrible...

sad moment when i went to farah house juz now...with fana,fiza,safiah,
am i to emotional ??emm...fiza....u didn't feel it....farah migrating to australia....haiz....misss her.....lotz....tmr mum goin to hospital with dad...taking care of sis....she caught a fever....gud for her...i'm not cruel...she deserves it anyway....many times .....i've be telling her "sis.....can u plz hear me??"simply ignore & make nuisance out of it......

# 11 DAYS #

long time since....* i can't remember*...i've never post any blog... d actual fact,supposedly daes off ...which is yesterdae...have a gud tite sleep when sis bang my door early late morning...when i'm frust with mum...for some "REASON"very *irritate*,i locked myself.....mum was away with dad to goldenlandmark...to seek medical....coreen called me...she say......fiqah....sorry..can u work 2dae?....haiz...hani was sicked.....for the sake of everyone there....i come...terrible dae.....many customer....i alomost fainted....dian ask....fiqah..u not tired meh......[offcourse i'm tired.......!!!!]my back acheing,my throat gettin worst.....huh....*sensitive to cold drinks*next time tell myself no no no...my leg...huh.....hard to sae..worst...dun talk bout tat

u won't noe how happy i am...last sundae..it seems for years tat i've never watch television......went back at 8pm....hehe..actually i ask uncle to realease me earlier coz...want to watch ikhlas...haiz....dunnoe when will i have an off....sorry to fana....can't make it for yesterdae...turn up playing badminton with safiah..tatz my fav sports...hopefully can make it for 14 dec...send farah to changi airport....

[tiz feeling won't lie....,i'm not sure wat is it]

# EMM.... #

.....this daes....i'm lazy to write....haiz...dunnoe..maybe becoz i've been workin 10 daes straight without off...and many terrible things happen to me....and i'm not goin to say.....don't want to gain any sympathy from others.....coz i noe they won't care........juz kept it to myself.....feel like writing down............emm........too much to mention.....haiz.....

# 104 FACTS #

guess itz the time i should write bout my whole life this year.....life of 16 years old....my soul,heart,life,feelings,thoughts,dignity,doubts,treasure
identity,depression,problems,prediction,perspective,weakness,curiousty
sympathy,concern,determination,personal,responsibility,friendhip,sin,
anxious,fear,vision,hatred,deeds,guts,freedom,path,anger,hardwork,
acheivement,failure,darkness,tolerance,condition,forgiveness,confidence,
happiness,virtue,view,nature,colours,appreciation,understanding,,favour
background,scene,wonders,sickness,dreams,concious,relationship,guy,
future,pride,love,storey,ambition,fav,luck,shelter,moral,religious,admire,
changes,emotions,role,selfesteem,sastifaction,selfwilled,loneliness,
respect,expectation,selfpossessed,idol,expendz,blog,desire,
company,eager,faith,maturity,knowledge,promise,study,effort,journey,
collection,target,courtesy,fault,secrect,confusion,confession,challenge,
roots,wistful,judgement,health......and one most important of all is my
"DIARY"....all my personal stuff....itz written....i can explain every
single word....but can't expect me to write in this blog...people tink i'm crazy......i'm not to detailed person...itz juz tat....i want to noe better who i am...& not being influence by others easily....

# BACK FROM THE COURSE #

1. yes...as if....is not a course..but niwae fana i do feel tat its useful.....but mum will never never never understand...tatz the point..ryte fana?i noe u encounter d same problem as me.....haiz..too bad....if only we're interested but not them....
2. bro everyday with thier playstation..i'm sick and tired....of them....can they grow up or something...not enough with one and two but three??ur goin to waste tat money....enough of football....huh...
3. mum angry with me coz i bought tat thing......mum....is not only me wearing it...k?...there's thousands of them....
4. tat mornin cuz called me up...too late....they two out with thier aunt...guess another dae we rawk d town...should tell earlier...went out with safia instead....then fana&safiah...meet at my house...now i'm back here.....trying to explain to mum wat the speech is all about...
5. i saw miss grace!!!!!shafad...u should be there....safiah was like..iqa??whose tat ur hugging......ouh..itz not a boy....she looks like....coz she's a tomboy....ask me why so long never come for choir practice....i'm dumb.....trying to find d answer.....one idea pops up...hehe.....juz hope tat she will not come to my workplace......gud tat i never kiss her ..almost.......i was so happy......haiz......wait for d party...c ya there.....shafad ,dila,janah,munira...& all my beloved friends......!=)

# I SHOULD NOT HAVE TOLD UNCLE.... #

*emm..*top 3???again...ouhk....sis...we're goin together...and i'm askin uncle to take a day off....should tell him the reason.....uncle.....ask me to blanja all of them...huh...thought of canadian pitza...tatz sounds ouhk.....but then dian speak out yeah!! yeah!!i want pitza hut.....emm.....ouhklar...up to them ...as long as they happy..can't wait for the dae...guess i'm wearing...school uniform again....k......tat'z for now...bro still not back yet.....must be with his friends....out to no where??