# WORLD OF CONFUSION #

**sTrezz**ya...tat's what i am rite now....i've finished my physics formula...no idea wat to do next......one week more to do my revision..can i make it?huh.....ss remedial....for june holiday....more worst its either 1 week .......& 2 day like normal skool......is tat craze?......i'm having a problem on how to help my frens.....in thier studies.....i'm not an angel........u see.......can'y expect to teach......each and everyone of them......somehow i'm feeling terrible if i can't manage to teach them......but i really want to help them........huh.......like i say i'm in a state of confusion....

# MY MALAY PAPER IS DONE!#

**OnE pApEr DoNe**its quite difficult especially the comprehension and"peribahasa"...ya...my fren..complaining bout it......i've wrote the composition on part B like hell....as if i'm writing story for a book..!noe tat?!cool rite......!i'm crazy......i didn't write the mind map....it just make u confused and even think more on wat u want to write.......this tues is english......i wonder whether i can pass 4 both paper.........hmmm......poor saraz......she cared for us..?can't beleive tat...actually....came back from skool at 3.00...teaching ila bout geog....never study tat much....the skool seems so quite and we decide to go back early....tat's for now....!

# AN UNSINCERELY APOLOGY??#

**bAd DaY 4 hEr**i noe how it feels when someone are rude to you..why are they so ignorant to how ahe feels.it hurts a lot i tell u....!somehow i wish they were in saraz position!one thing tat cause the problem on why we are not paying attention to her lesson is because she is not strict enough.!she's been to kind to all of us.....and the first impression when she steps into our class.......some off my mates are not respectful to her...the opinion tat my frenz given is not truth.....they said her lesson is not interesting?.........huh.....for me she is a lot better than any other english teacher that i've encounter........i dun understand why they treat mdm saraz ....that way.....its not fair for her....hope tat she dun teach my class again so as she will not get the humilliation from .......noe who??those people......!anyway tmr is my mt paper 1......so fast!!?....gotta study.....tat's for now....

# IRMAN DON'T YOU EVER MAKE ME STREZZ!#

**I'm StReZz Up WiTh mAn!**ya.....why..?sohuld he be so.....!strezz.....i'm seating there teaching him.......and he kept on saying to me tat he couldn't make it for this year 'N' level....and then why i am there to teach him.....??ha?rite man?if he kept on saying tat he could not make it and S.t.R.e.Z.z...all the time.....sure wat he say is goin to be the truth...erghh......i'm trying my best to help......so...dun make me strezz...!huh.....ure not the only one......there thousands of people taking the paper...but i'm glad to see his attitude..at least he is concerned bout his studies....and approach me for help.....gud of you.......!i'll alwaz be there to help....hope you suceed in ure life......&pass ure exam with flying colours...luck!

# WHY &WHY& WHY ????#

**wHy?WhY?**why do people........are arrogant,selfish,they think bout themselves,they dun care bout their studies,childish at the age of 14+?no self-confidence,big mouth but nothing inside....noe wat i mean?,rotten inside,talk bad bout people,praise themselves,treat others like slave,scold people with vulgaraties,act as if they are cool,break promises,shout at the top of their voice without reasons..?have self-esteems of themselves,not satisfied with wat they had????there so much questions in my mind........who could kindly answer for me????i tink none of them....noe......maybe all this questions are S.T.U.P.I.D.....take a look at the mirror and see a reflection of who you really are......why why why why why why why why why why ???dun understand...this people are weird!

# MU LURVING CUZ ALWAZ.....#

Posted by: syafiqah

My CuZ.......!hmm.....we're going to my aunt house this sat....hehehe so happy tat we are goin to meet each other.....sure my cuz.........uda!!!will joke around.......she's funny sometimes.......without her its very boring.....she's in poly this year.....hope she's success in her life!

# WHAT HAPPEN TO ME 2DAE??#

**???**Dun noe wat happen to me 2dae....very strezzful.......no mood to write...........erghhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........!i'm feeling sick &tired with school work.......i want to dump all my books in the dustbin!!hate skool.....erghh........!when is this life goin to be over??

# MUZIKA EXTRAVAGANZA#

**MuZiKa ExTrAvAgAnZa**yesterday show was really cool..i was quite surprised when T.A.U.F.I.Q and C.T get to sing on the stage !they are so hot..!with the singapore idol finalist!!!ruffedge......!huh.........can't say anymore.....i just enjoy the show so much.But to bad ct never sing duet with taufiq.....hmm....my step sis.....is so violent she told me that she beat someone in her skool....ya ITE student are so naughty??is it?.Her fren is cazy....i mean..they jokes around &they are not involve in gangs.....she's pretty ..and her guy works at hotel as a waiter.Very fierce looking guy..and noe wat?he even taught my sis how to defence herself....if someone fight with her.....very rough.....hmm...she's kind actually...&friendly.hope she is successful in her life &not involving in gangs !tat's my sis!!!

# FUCHUNCC#

**FuChuN CC**i'm jus back from studying at fuchun cc .The place is so conducive!,quite&cosy.everyday i feel like studying there rather than my room.The room is so small but can nearly fit bout 20.....people....hmm..bout 3 hours....doing my math!only..i do revision bout circles till i'm fed -up with the same kind of question again &again&again...trigonometry to.....huh.....bored ....!but i noe practice make perfects !so you have to go through this....tiring .....after tat i fana &safiah go for "so called modelling".......hehehehe..noolah......we actually admire the place so much......so nice..tat we went to the last storey and took some pic.....we posed here &there like model.........haaha....dun act like u are......!jus for fun.Safiah is so attracted to the""TOILET""!ya...cause very beautiful..like in the sentosa...she was the first person to urge i &fana to the toilet.wat a gerl?hmm..........next few weeks i will spending my time in"FCC" study area......boosting my brain & get the brain cell working......can't wait for the mid-year exam..want to see my results.So i noe where i'll stand for "N" level paper.

# FEEL LIKE KILLING HER! DAMN IT!#

**I fEel LikE kIlLiNg hEr**hate her....she's worst than a drug addictor,murderer&"ALL" the criminals in this world!!she's a big liar!!feel like slapping her ....even more worst the "DIRECTOR"...in the first place i sould not watch the drama..its irritating....&full of suspension....the character have made the audience attracted to the story....i was being too emotional probably........that makes me so hot-tempered.....!!!erghh...fana also she feel like slapping her face......i've learn my lesson not to see such stories....it irritates!!!beta catch comedy..more gud...just lol.....huh..can't wait for the last episod.......!!!

#SHIFT CLASS TO THE GROUND FLOOR#

**SHiFt ClAsS!**my class is shifted to the ground floor all because of nizam....gud..so everyday no need to climb the 4 storey!!pity for him...dun noe what happen to his leg.......& he also have earing problem...pity rite?hope he'll recovered....hmm..i dun understand some of my calssmate is frustrated with nizam jus because we shifted class..she's so inconsiderate..can't she understand....what is happening to him?god.....if i were in nizam's shoes i will feel dissapointed....&will feel that i'm guilty....hmm.....i wish those people never existed....!they say something without thinking tat they hurt their feelings ......somehow i noe people will change....hope so!hmm........all the uniform groups is going to have thier POP. my fren is not sad instead she's happy....goshh!what wrong with u gerl!...hmm..she told me that her junior's is grateful to have thier seniors step down......tat's rude isn't it????ok..i understand.......but still i will miss my CCA. when is my farewell party??can't wait for the moment where we will miss & hugs each other...so sad....not going to see my express frenz....my conductor...especially....huh....wonder how's is like?but for sure i'm going to cry...dun talk bout it.....

band?

**fIZa.NeZa.NisA**they're have their own band......hmm...this year ....I'm proud to have a friend like them...cool isn't it when you create your own lyrics &song!i heard tat they will perform for teacher's day!really!wow!can't wait for the moment..... wonder how its like???!hmm..but neeza is a stage fright!there's notin to be afraid of!its jus the stage?shy?no need to be shy..you must be so grateful to perform on stage.....and people will give an applause for ya performance........?rite?jus wait....for me i prefer to be single performer......who noes...someday....they will become a singer......!wahaha.......!

AmAtH RESULT

**i pAsT mY A mAtH!**ya....i did past my A math but shouldn't be so proud of it..cause its at e border line......can do better actually...hmm..more revision...!still got mid-year....must improve...&the top student is none other than eng hin...!ya...he's always the top student in A MATH &other sub...still wondering..he should not be in this class.....he should be in the express stream instead.....preparing for 'O' level this year...hmm.............maybe tat's not gud enough.......he should be at boy's skool such as "Raffles institution","St's gabriel"&wateva it is.......anyway congratz..!!eng hin.......!keep it up.....!hehehe....wat else.....oh ya.....2dae i did my duty on my own....hmm..nisa....nvm....she's alwaz like tat...dun mind....doing it by myself......&khai actually help me sweeping the floor..... kind of him...tanks!!!!!appreaciate tat!:)

tmr geog test...

**tmr is geog test**...first time in my life i had been studying seriously for my so called "not so important test"for me!!u noe....i hate geog....&i have done e summary of 3 chap ........{8,9&10}happy for tat..i was wondering hmm....is it?i did the summary?????????????ooohh........gosh is it true!!??haha.....i'm crazy of trying to pass my geog test.......since i've alwaz failed ......!especially M.A.P. R.E.A.D.I.N.G!! all the figure2 thing...!huh...hates...zzzzzzzzzzz!ok stop bout me gettin boast of the sub....!my mum have not even cook till now.....and she expect me to eat burger ramlee??ok.....fine cause some unexpected visitor came to my house and mum have to serve them with drinks &chat with them........& they were here for so long.....nvm..i understand....gtg...tat's for now......

upset....

**VErY uPsEt**i'm upset....cause i didn't expect the results for chemistry test paper i get.....29 out of 40.......bad ha?at least i maintain my results.......not quite excellent......tat's wat it call fate......u can't expect what u want to happen.......rite?all lies in god's hand.....what i tink is beta is expect the opposite fact............hmm....i shall expect i get poor!!! results for my mid -year..!is tat it?stupid rite?then u will get good results instead....?!rite?!noe wat i mean???~wat i'm talkin?!huh.!.........i'm irritate with my results....!maaybe dun tink too much bout it..it only hurts myself &make me more dissapointed....erghh..why am i so angry 2dae?starting to hate chem?hmm...no way.......never give up.....believe in yourself...ya....rite....taufiq says tat.....tat's for now...wanna do revision....!erghh...!anyway....i've finished my summarising for chem!gud.....!no more worry.....but offcourse now i understand all the chap........happy for my effort..hope it worth it!if not ....huh.kill..myself......!haha.....tat's violent...not tat kind of person.maybe i'll suffer all of my life....i'm goin to feel regret.......for myself...?should i?

must complete my mission

**I'M cRaZy??**Am i?**i have to complete my mission tat is to do summary for the whole book of chem by 2dae...!i've just completed last year syllabus for bout hmm...6+hours...bad ha.crazy?ya its true......i'm damn crazy bout chem....&i have to compete the whole chap for 'N' level by 2dae!!!iqah......have to do you...&i noe i can do it.......talkin to myself again.?haha i'm srtrezz.my mum ask me to follow her buy food for dinner....huh.?i just eat......irritating seh.......get to the point.....hmm....if i couldn't make it 2dae....maybe have to be done by tmr!have too!!!!still got many other sub that i have not writen the summary.......tat's bad.....mid year is drawing near.....&i have to at least complete summarising hmm....5 more sub...!also preparing for n level......maybe to early ...but dun tink so......?have to start by now......rite?huh......!gtg..have to do my chem summary &its damn alot....!erghh....for my own sake....

yipee?My sTeP sIs GAve Me NoTe

**My TeDiOuS rEvIsIoN Bks.......huh.....!** have 14 books altogether ......my step sis jus gave me e math 'o'level ten years series.....+pure geog bk?huh....me dun take pure but elective.....nvm...still can do some of it.....hmm..but anyway i prefer pure geog.....the book is thick!!god....how am i goin to finished all "14!"revision books....crazy...!so.have to study at least 6 hours...each day......tat's my target...... but i only manage 4++ hours...... must strive harder...u noe?i enjoy studying chem..&i can even write the summary for 1 whole bk tat contains 16 chap.....for a day...... !cool rite......?tat's me......haha......i'm crazy 4 chem..cause tat's my fav!++emath&amath too......but "they"make me crazy<4m>{MaTh}{MakE}{mE}{mAd]!rite............hhuh..... trying hard for....physics.....canlah....also my fav its jus tat i've sometimes up&down fotr phy....?i also dun noe.....maybe not enough revision..the worst 4 phy is it contain..all irritating"##FoRmUlAe##".....hate so much.....!....hmm....geog&ss....??????? beta dun talk bout it.....iiiiiiiiiiiiii"""""""HaTe"''""""'"""!get it clear...!

hi!started my revision

**JUs STarTeD mY iNtEsIvE sTuDiEs**i have started me revision for chem...just finish 4 chap...writing all the stupid notes....!!huh..!tiring..but it gave me satisfaction...cause i will benefit for myself.....!rite!haha...talkin to myself......huh.....i'm damnly strezz..because i cannot do my A math all of a sudden what mr soong thought ...me all vanished......huh..!weird ha...!why?.......wake10x up........!tat's for now..wanna ketchup with AMANDA..MY FAV TV SHOW......agnes ure cool.......da.....

choir......

**??????????**it seems weird for me not goin for choir 2dae.....sad isn't it?but anyway i can start my intensive studies focusly.......dun have to worry much bout my cca..hmmm....tat's all.....for now.....i wanna ketchup with my fav TV SHOW!!!!!gosh !!won't miss it.................................!siti!!! she's my =IdOl=!phheww.........crazy rite!hehehe

goin 4 nite study

**NiTe StUdY** studying chem 2dae...which is my fav sub!i'm also goin 2 teach my frenz...one thing u should noe bout me is tat i lurve to teach people......hmm...i have the feeling tat i'm going to be a teacher.....maybe.it give u satisfaction for urself when you make someone acheive gud results because of u who teach them..it also built up ur confidence in wateve u do...ure not goin to feel afraid of doing something new.......it helps alot...u gonna feel happy for urself when u have done some deeds for ur fren.....someone whom u care.......tat's the great pleasure in my life!!i 'm glad to see my fren tat is happy with their results....

AmatH!

**A math** i feel very sad,after hours of doing my revision..in !amath!.i cannot do some of the questions....i lose many marks from it!erghh..........!why is this happening to me.......?i feel like crying one whole day........noe how upset i am??huh......i can't help it......if can i want to cry as much as i can...........but too bad....how could you cry....inside ur classroom.....ure frenz are watching you.....!iqah...........wat happen to u?jus have to keep inside my heart...no one noes......only u.....see....how sad it is?its my bad day....may be i should go to the beach to rest my mind....i'm getting veryx10 strezz......wish i can pass...

ChEM.....!ITS DIFFICULT!

!studies! i've taken my chem test 2dae.its difficult..although i've studied for it but at least i can answer almost all the que....my classmates are all complaining..cher difficult siah......ya rite guys &ger..its damn difficult...hmm...i'm quite upset with myself cause i did not refer to this 'one' page...that happens to be the que...godness...i'm mad of it.......how can i miss the page?i've gone through chem booklet 4 bout....?so many times........!?stupid isn't it?i've lost 3!!!!!marks......erghh......!why?maybe i'm overexcited to take chem paper....since its my "favourite" sub.......&one week before the paper i started writing my notes...."everyday".....and memorizing the formula,conditions,reaction,....huh...&wateva it is.......!!fed up....hopefully i dun drop my chem..from A1-A2.......hmm.i receive my math...paper...2dae....quite upset.......i get 30 out of 40.......tat's not the highest distinc........huh.....have to do more revision....!...anyway.......geog test postponed next week........haha....so happy.......i hate tat sub........but still have to sit 4 the paper .......huh.....!?

GoSH....i'D luRve tHe SoNg...!

**GosH.......i'd LuRvE ThE sOnG**! i'm so happy 2dae cause i just bought greatest love of all ...the song is so nice &touching..i've been dreaming for this album.........at last.....my dreams do come true...!so happy.....!if i were 2 make a choice either to throw my pinky stufzz........?or buy the album..i would take all my stufzz to the dustbin..!noe wat i mean.....?damn happy....cannot describe anymore......everyday i will........play the CD........none stop!& i will stay in my room for hours...........neva goin to get bored..its my heart &soul............huh....my skool jus started night studying ..tmr can't make it cause i wanna study 4 my A MATH....which i lurve so much..hmm......but surely i will go on thursday......no test the next day..... jus finished my geography test...'hate'!!i alwaz failed......but hmm..i do try my best......one thing why i'm not gud in geo cause my eng is poor..and sometimes i dun understand the que......ure rite MDM FARAH....we are bad in english!!!tat's y we can't ans e que.....i'm...........also starting my peer tutoring with my classmates.......many of them approach me......&i'm glad to see tat cause at least they ask 4 help before 'N' level is drawing near....i will play my part..&teach them as much as i can...hope they acheive gud results.......i will be happy 4 them........

HOw lOnG BLUES....?

**hoW lOnG BlUeS??**[h]ow long baby,how long?has that even bus been gone?how long?how long?i say how long?[s]tandin,at the bus station watchin my baby leave town.sure am dis gusted -for where could he be gone-for how long?how long?i say how long?[i]can hear the bus stoping but i cannot see no bus and deep down in my heart i got an ache and pain .for how long?how long?i say how long?[s]ometimes i feel disgusted and i feel so blue .[t]hat i hardly know what in this world its best to do.for how long?[h]ow long?i say how long?[if] i could holler like a mountain jack.i'd go up on the mountain and call my baby.for how long?how long?i say how long?[i]f some day he gonna be sorry that he done me wrong baby,it will be to late then-for i'll be gone foer so long, so long,so long![m]y mind gets to rattling,i feel so bad thinkinbout the back luck that i have had.for so long,so long,so long, [H]OW LONG?BABY HOW LONG?BABY,HOW LONG?HOW LONG...........?

MuMmY iTs OVeR.........!

**mUmMy ItS OvEr**at lasts ,speech day is over...i'm very sad cause i'm going to miss..............MISS grace alot....i'll alwaz remember her advice......she thought me to be a better person....she's even good then a teacher..i think she should get an award.miss her alot....wonder when she's getting married...?hope she will have a happy life......

MoSt MeMoRiAbLe MemOrIeS.....

**MoSt mEmOrIaBlE mEmOrI...**2 dae is the end of my strezz zone......i have to concentrate on my studies.juat now is the most memoriable day to me and i would not forget the day my choir cheer for ourselves cause we get silver ..its unexpected as we tink tat we could get bronze .as for the last 2 years we get COP...noe how surprised we are?we shout at the top of our voice..and other choir skools were looking at us since we were the first one to announced the results..me,shafad,dila,jannah,farhana,cried......as we couldn't believe it...and we were overexcited.my friends were crazy bout other skools choir especially st'gabriel sec......they were all boyzz.....&they were very handsome offcourse.....shafad......is even more worst...she's dying for the guy tat he admired....dun noe who.......but i guess its the pianoist....from other skool........quite hansome lah......their voice is so charming...any girs tat hear sure their heart will melt...they were smartly dress....like 20++no wonderlah.....but i'm not like tat.......i dun feel anything.....it is tiring cause we sit there for bout 6 hours....and we were freezing like hell....go back at night......lucky my A math test is postponed to next week....if not i have to stay overnight to study.......or jus ignore bout it....tat's bad...ha?but still there is chemistry test,physics.tat i havent take...nvm still got sun & sat to revise......i hope i can do my best........and score distinction......so have to study really hard....tat fa now.....wanna sleep so tired

hmm......GoIN to StArT mY iNtEsIVe StUdIeS!

**hMm...GoIn tO StArT mY iNtEnSiVe sTUdIeS** 2 dae i just receive my mid year examination time schedule..!quite surprised actually....times is running fast....until i didn't realize that this year i'm sitting for my 'N' level!.......because i did not do my revision regularly....hmm...supposely...i study at least 3 subject everyday for bout 6 hours..but....i slacked!why?why?why?&i did badly for my common test previously....noe tat?i'm so desperate to pass all my sub .....but i feel that i cannot make it....cause i'm alwaz busy....with my school work...personal problems...cca...&some of the stuffzz ....that i usually do at home.....hmm.........very tiring....tmr is my big10x day..i'm praying hard to acheive what i had dreamt for the past 5 months...that is.........to get bronze at least 4 my choir...or even better if we get silver......or else i cried like what i did for last two years...because we get C.O.P....noe how sad it is?it feels miserable....for many months i've been going through.........hours of practice......!its tiring......huh.......lucky i sit for my physics test next week......huh.....that's gud!cool down my stress....okie.....me have to packed....my stufzz for tmr......my big10x DAY!!!.i'll have to remember what miss grace said.......sing with your heart &soul,concentration,dun be nervous,sing with emotion,.................2 much to mention....but one thing that i've experiened is........tears falling down from my eyes.....when i sing the song...it touches my heart....tat's 4 now....!

strezz...........!

**sTrEzZ!** this week is very stress.......................!i have to perform 4 my SYF nvm.......i had enough of it....and i don't want to involve in anycompetition.......sit for 3 test paper........do my religious homework..........speech day.........!but at least i receive an acheivement.......actually i was quite surprised......&i dun noe that i'm good in malay...!hmm.........get back to the point.......!i have to be ready for my debate......!its tiring man.....can't concentrate in my studies...noe tat!all i hope that this time will pass.........cannot tahan........everyday have to go back late..!and this all happen in one week!can you imagine tat.......? occasion......or activities.....huh..........!

a DiTty...........

**A dItTy** my true-love hath my heart,and i have his, by just exchange one to the other given: i hold his dear,and mine he cannot miss, there never was a better bargain driven: my true -love hath my heart,and i have his.heart in me keeps him and me in one,my heart in him his thoughts and senses guides:he loves my heart ,for once it was his own,i cherished his because in me it bides:my true -love hath my heart.and i have his.