# UPDATES #

[290406]
This term ,I'm all screwed up in preparation for my mid-year
exams--And there's lots of schoolwork,chapters to catch up with .
You think its easy for me?Particularly ,I'm upset with myself.
I ought not to care about anyone.I mean ...like ila,she's totally
giving up on her studies and i was like ...ouuhh ila please don't
you ever give up on yourself.--But now,NO...i didn't encourage
her,i didn't support her,i didn't motivate her.I simply let her be by herself,struggling with her studies. I'm nuts!.How dare could i
done that to her--she's been with me for 7 years.The fact ,she'd
never appreaciate what i'd done to her. So ,why shud i waste
my energy on her?why?why?.I'm not like an "Old"iqa.But why?.
Iqa used to be caring and alwz motivate her friends.But now?. Argh.What happened to me?.Perhaps, i'm stress..
i cannot cope with my studies--but though deep inside
my heart i still care for them. I'm confused,i'm disappointed with myself=(

In few months time,bro is going to continue his 3rd &4th year in ite.2nd bro ,will stop working and continue his private studies in BMC.{concentrate}.

Soon,i'll be sitting for my prelims,then o..Everything is going to be very drastic.Then coreen or uncle might call me & ask me to work again in BATA,coz i've promised them i would.But no..Maybe i'll find another job,like being a promoter, librian or part time tuition teacher.I think to far..hey iqa, u can't predict the future.


[300406]
Grandparents came.Lil ayu wanna go study at civic library on mondae..[what a coincidence) but she almost forgotten itz labour dae..& library will be closed.

[010506]
Mum's cousin from pakistan came by surprise.HuH.I dun understand thier language.Last few weeks was a visit from grandfathers cuzin,he live in australia.I dunnoe that dad have relatives there.ummph,wateva.